SO first off let me tell you that I have FAILED today. During lunch when this was all getting ready to explode I drove my pretty butt over to Mc Donalds and instead of ordering the side salad I usually have, I ordered a 4pc. Chicken Nugget Mini-Meal with a Dr. Pepper. May not sound bad to you, but for a girl who hasn't had meat or soda in a month it was one of the worst things I could have done. The very very worst part of it was that I did it with the intention of hurting myself. I was mad, I could not handle it and I needed to punch a wall, cry into a pillow, or do something destructive, so I let myself down and ended up with a stomach ache and eventually vomiting after only being able to shove two nuggets down my throat.
I usually am the type of person that can express my feelings clearly and direct. I am pretty good at staying positive and putting things into perspective, but I am just so broken right now that I wouldn't know where to begin.
Sorry to unload all of this on to you guys. I really am. GRRRR I wish I could just fix everything and everyone around me right now. I feel like my heart is being strangled.
I wish it could be *THIS* day again!